even when i heartlessly walk away from you, you’re still the same and you’re still here. no one really knows anything. i always love to isolate myself, my thoughts, my actions.. it’s when the enemy has me best. when im standing alone. though i know im never alone.. i choose to be alone. i block you out, i turn my ear. it’s been so bad, and here i am again..

still the empty void, not filled it. nothing gained but worldlyness. statifaction, not even close to what you gave me.

here i lay lukewarm. i know this doesnt please you at all. im sorry i slip and sometimes fall. fall short of your glory and short of your calling. still i come here again, on my knees crawling. i come as the prodigal son who lost his way in the world. who needed to realize where his world really was. please loosen the chains i wrapped so tightly around this heart. my sprit is weak and it’s close to falling apart. you are my rock, shelter, father and friend. i come to you. broken and lost, again.